This week was one of those, "I don't have my life all figured out" weeks. It really is when your whole life (that you think you have figured out) seems to be falling apart and you realize that you have no absolute control over your life. Thinking about the good, the bad, and the ugly all having a purpose is a pretty complex equation for me to phantom. But God knows the answer to every single puzzling problem. And God is good, all the time.
Since school has started back up, I've been aboard the crazy train. Time has been a blur and Thursdays feel like Saturdays. I've (literally) expressed every emotion from stress, to highs of happiness, and moments where I stop and think that I have no any idea what I'm even doing with my life.
Thank the Lord I have God as my rock through it all. Amidst classes, work, and the other complexities of life He has been what's kept me sane. Having prayer and worship have been the only things that have brought true peace to me over the past few weeks.
Thank you God for being the one thing in my life that is constant. God and God's Word always makes sense and is always the same. This is why we need to have such confidence in Him. Without the encouragement and peace in knowing in God's grace and purpose, I would be... nothing. I truly don't know how I could even value my own life if it weren't for knowing that my life is because and for the Lord.
This is my first "personal post" on my blog where you really get to see into my life a little bit and my "untogetherness". A song I listened to countless times this week comforted me with the words, "There's no place I could go Your love won't find me. No place I could hide that You don't see. When I misunderstand You understand me. You see it all, through the eyes of love."
These lyrics left me hungry for His Word and I found a passage that reaffirmed the words I couldn't stop replaying, "Who have I in heaven but You Lord? I desire nothing of this earth but You. My heart and flesh will fail, but God is the strength of my heart forever." Psalms 73:26
Even though some things feel like the end of our little world, it will pass. Trusting in Him and his wonderous ways of working everything just as it should is the only thing I can have total confidence in.
Thank goodness for that is all I can say. God loves me for the beautiful mess that I am. And assuming whoever is reading this has their own set of problems, God loves your beautiful mess too. :)